today we had a very chill evening with the cousins for steph's last night in the bay. pizza, rock band, and forgetting sarah marshall. i was pretty tired from the day's events, but i was more sad about her leaving. i think i really was one of the people who really pushed her to go away for college and have the experience that i had. at the same time, there was a huge part of me that was selfish and wanted her to stay closer to home. i'm afraid that i'll miss too much of her life, that she'll have all these experiences i'll never know about, and perhaps i just don't like the idea of her being out of my "reach." little girls have to grow up sometime, i guess...
but even now, i'm telling myself to take comfort in the fact that she'll be in my hood. she'll be in a place where i reconnected with God, found life-long friends, and decided to dedicate my life to His ministry. no, i don't expect her to follow in my footsteps despite what the family says (not that that would be such a bad idea ;P), but at least i know she'll be surrounded by good people, and that she'll always have a safehaven to run to...just in case.
i really wanted to go with her this weekend to move in. i think it's better that i don't. it'll be emotional enough with her family, so i'll just cry by myself this weekend and wallow in trying to accept the change that is inevitable.
pray for us, please.
6 comments:
don't worry dianne! i'll watch over her here! & she will be with good people =D
praying for you! i hope this means you can visit irvine more often!
thank you! hope i get to visit more, too!
who are you calling "good"?! hehe. jk.
if she needs anything (ie. 500-pd gorilla bodyguard, etc.) i think dav gave her my number. my cousin is going away to college... ]= but she is going to UCI =]. maybe they can be friends.. hehe.
haha, thanks chuck! oh yeah we should introduce them!
i was looking for steph at motp!
i may see her at first meeting though :)
i saw her before Mass started!!! i said hi. i think she remembered me. hehe.
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